If something is meant to be, I mean, really meant to be, it will happen. It might take longer than you think and it might come about when you least expect it, but there it will be. No matter what path you take to get to it. One day it will be there waiting for you to open your eyes, roll out of bed, and open the front door. Waiting for you as long as you’ve been waiting for it.
A boy and his fish (by home is wherever i’m with you)
This is one of my best friends. He left for the coast to live with his parents and go to school for a while. Today it has officially been a month since I have seen him, which is kind of difficult to wrap my mind around.
I remember taking this and being so thrilled about it. One of my favourite boys and my favourite fish. A father-son moment, you might say.
We probably spent days hunched over ourselves watching this little guy flip and grow and eat.
It’s hard missing things.
Because at this point it seems my only options are to be completely infatuated with this cute boy who sometimes smiles and says hi to me, or miss you. And frankly, I don’t think I have it in me to miss you anymore.
One day I know I will, but at this point, it feels like I’ll never be able to go a day without thinking about you. That seems incomprehensible. All those lingered thoughts never stumbling upon a stray strand of your hair or accidentally brushing against your arm. Because a day without thinking about you is a day when nothing reminds me of you - and everything reminds me of you.
You’re every word I read, every person I see, and everything I do.
It’s funny how your role in a relationship can change. It feels like just yesterday I was the child. I was young and I was scared and I didn’t want you to leave because that would be the end of everything. You would reassure me with summarizations. Now you’re gone and everything is a new beginning. It’s almost exciting, living your life for yourself. If you stopped to look, you might notice that our roles have almost switched - you’re frantic, I’m calm.
Apparently my dashboard isn’t a safe place to scroll until I’ve seen the new Vampire Diaries. Even though my eyes weren’t fast enough to look away and I already know the big surprise.
Driving to work today, the clouds were lined so perfectly on the horizon I could have sworn they were mountains.
“You’ll always be a special friend to me. And I will love you always.”
That’s what you said.
It’s just so easy to be happy when I’m with you but so hard when I’m not. And let’s face it, I don’t see you much anymore.
